It was a banana bar.
An innocent enough, quite small, banana bar.
I had to work today. V, the lady I work with, occasionally brings treats in. Oh yes, though I walk through valley of the shadow of pizza, fried zucchini, garlic bread, cheesecake, cheesy sticks, chocolate pudding, blue cheese dressing, & other good things, I managed to resist temptation until today.
I don't know why. I went to work with a plan. I had my dinner ready for when I got home. I had my gym bag packed for after work, the whole 9 yards. I got to work at noon and I was starving already...that's probably the crux of the problem. I had oatmeal for breakfast. I love it, but it does not fill me at all. I'm hungry when I'm done eating it...but I do love it! I won't be having it on a work day again I can tell you that much!!!
I popped one of those banana bars into my mouth. They're small you know? Oh it was heaven on my tongue. Moist, bananaey, just wonderful. Did I quit then? Nope. Oh if only I had! I had 2 more. Yum.
My favorite pizza, ham and mushroom, came up on the pizza buffet line. I put one aside. I ate that. Yum. Did I stop there? Nope.
Break time rolled around. I fixed a salad. Somehow cheese, croutons, seeds, and blue cheese dressing ended up on it. I'm not sure how it happened, but a plate with cottage cheese and chocolate pudding appeared too. Unfortunately, they joined the basked of fried zucchini! It was awesome dipped in the homemade ranch dressing we make at work.
I worked a long day. Pizza buffet rolled around again at 5pm. Sighhh some of the hot, buttery, cheesy sticks ended up down my gullet.
I finally got to punch out a bit after 8pm. I sat down with a piece of cheesecake and some potato chips and chatted about.....WEIGHT WATCHERS with a few of the girls!
Laughing here....gotta laugh or cry. I choose laugh.
So, home from work. Gee I'm hungry! I had a homemade chocolate chip cookie and a glass of milk when I got home. My daughter in law makes gooooooood cookies!!! They had walnuts in them...that's a healthy nut right?
So, I'm off to have dinner now. I'm thinking half a pig perhaps? Maybe a leg of cow? Not sure how to top what I've already eaten today!
I did walk home from work. I got 13,500 steps today. I'm pretty sure that's not enough to cover what I ate.
Do I feel bad? No. Kind of wish I did...and kind of glad I don't.
Weigh in isn't going to be pretty tomorrow night.
Ah well, lifetime journey and all that.
That damn f'ing pebble got me this time. I think I'm prepared to hold strong next time. The time after that? I'm not too sure. I'll just take one avalanche at a time!
A wink and a smile
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